Wednesday, July 14, 2010

11 weeks

11 week update:  I have decided to do my questionaire chart on only even numbered weeks as it would get pretty boring weekly.  So for this week I just want to state one major issue....nothing sounds good anymore.  I didn't eat dinner Monday night.  I sat around the house until 7:30 trying to think of something that sounded good and when nothing came to mind I decided to go to Chipotle...mexican has always been my saving grace.   I don't know what I was thinking but I decided to try grilled chicken on my burrito bowl and as soon as I saw him put the chicken on my bowl I knew I had made a mistake.  I got the bowl home, had two bites and that was that.  No dinner.  I just went to bed.  Last night after therapy I tried to find something that sounded plain and good for dinner.  I knew there was nothing at home so I did the unthinkable...I went to Taco Bell...more mexican...I ordered a spanish rice cup and a pinto beans and cheese cup.  My order totaled $2.00 and that small portion of rice and beans was my dinner.  I am really struggling in the food department.  As I type now, I haven't had breakfast and I have no idea what I will end up eating.  Other than that I feel great.  I ordered my pregnancy pillow yesterday so I would have it for my 12th week.  12 weeks is a huge milestone for us as we will be out of the first trimester.   OH!!!!!!! And I had my first baby dream last night!!!  I had a baby girl named Sophie.  Wonder if the fact that the baby was a girl in the dream means anything?

8 comments:

Nick and Kristi said...

Try Mac and Cheese....that has been doing it for me...Im sorry to hear abt your struggles with your mom...me and my mom are so close we people actually think we look like sisters(my mom is younger 48) and my hubbie even gets us mixed up sometimes...funny...anyways I guess going through this will allow you to break the cycle:)Take Care

Auntie K said...

I feel you in the food department! Honestly, after reading about your Mexican ... I felt nauseas! lol Chicken definitely doesn't appeal to me either, although it never really did. A cheeseburger can sometimes do the trick, as long as its not greasy. I've been eating though even if I'm not hungry ... we have to. Fruit, cereal, and like the above person said, Mac & Cheese. Those have been my life savers! I've had that for lunch a few times now. Need something to fill the belly in order to take those pesky prenatal vitamins!

P.S. - Sorry about your mother, but glad you've gotten some answers.

Nick and Kristi said...

Hey I meant to ask you more about that blog book...I want to do one these to but Im trying to decide if I should print a book from the start of this IVF cycle to when we found out were pregnant or if I should wait til the end...what did you do? Howd it turn out...Thanks

LCP said...

Hi! My SIL has BPD and she met my brother and was moved in/pregnant and married within 7 months. She has since alienated him from my family. I am so sorry that your mom has it, that can't be easy in any way. People with BPD are really hard to maintain a relationship with.

T said...

Wow, it sounds like you got a lot off your chest and that is awesome! Just talking about things really helps me. I am glad that you were able to discuss all of this with someone removed from the situation.
I hope she helps you communicate with your mother. It sounds like you two had a very good start!

Jem said...

What a wonderful first step towards healing yourself in regards to your mother. You will not be able to change her, but you can change your mental outlook and how you react to her. I'm so glad you found a counselor who understands and who can help you. You are giving a gift to yourself, and also to your unborn baby.

Alex said...

I think it's wonderful that you have found a counselor that is really going to help you. I understand what you mean about being happy about having a label that fits your mother - it somehow makes sense, doesn't it?

Hope you find something good to eat soon!

The Wolf's said...

Mexican is my go to food too! It will be a sad day if the time when I can't stomach it.