Wednesday, December 29, 2010


Holy Crap!  35 weeks down/35 days to go until our Estimated Due Date (the original Feb 2nd due date).  I am in awe that we have made it this far and in what seems like a flash.  35 weeks has passed in what seems like the blink of an eye.  I started reflecting back on the last 35 weeks and it looks something like this...

It all started with this little prayer the day of our first injection for this cycle...

"I asked God to watch over us as we pursue our dream of having a child. I promised him that I would make this child my first priority in life and would make it my mission to raise a child that felt wanted and loved. I would give this child all of the good things I have been afforded in life and do my best spare it all of the negative things. I would help guide this child to be a loving, responsible, caring, intelligent person. I would give this child all that I have if we could be so lucky as to have a successful IVF cycle this time."

 May 15, 2010 - Embryo 1 transferred
 May 15, 2010 - Embryo 2 transferred

An excerpt from my post the day of transfer-

"There, in the middle of my uterus on a fuzzy ultrasound screen was a bright glow, our embryos. Jamie rubbed my arm and then grabbed my hand once we got closer to the moment and when I looked back at his face once the transfer was complete he was red and he had tears in his eyes. I looked back once more and he had his head down. That summed it up, all of our hard work, our many appointments, all of those injections, vitamins and pills were for this one little magical moment we had been waiting for. The embryos sat in the brightest spot on the screen in a little air pocket in my uterus, it was done. "

A few days worth of positive pregnancy tests kept secret by J and I while we soaked it all in.  An experience I thought I would never have.  I just kept testing!
June 17, 2010 - 2 days before J's 34th birthday.  Our first ultrasound where we saw the heartbeat for the first time.  J posing with our lucky coconut.

Our  10 week ultrasound. 
June 29, 2010 - Our 12 week ultrasound.  Printed to tell J's Grandma that we are expecting.

August 7, 2010 - J's Grandmother's 85th birthday party.

 Sharing the good news at 14 weeks.
Great moment. Grandmother and Grandson after the announcement.

September 16, 2010 - 18 weeks
It's a GIRL!
 Still, my favorite ultrasound.
Presents for Daddy.  The day we found out we were having a girl.
December 3, 2010 - 4D ultrasound.

I can't believe so much has happened in 35 weeks.  We are so fortunate.  As far as the pregnancy at this bones hurt.  Sleeping is very uncomfortable and I flip back and forth constantly throughout the night because laying on my sides is hurting my bones from my lower legs all the way up to my shoulders and especially my hips.  Sleeping on my back helps to relieve my sides but I can only lay that way for so long before it gets really uncomfortable.  Two mornings ago I woke up in so much pain I was walking like an elderly person and so I took a hot shower to warm up my bones and that helped.  Sleeping on the sofa is helping some as it is softer than our bed.  Looks like sofa city is it for me yet again.

I have also been experiencing more BH contractions.  Cramp like feelings low under my belly that last 30 seconds to a minute.  They just appeared on Christmas night and happened a couple more times throughout the next couple of days.  Looks like the ol' body is preparing for our little star.

On another front.  I have to admit I am getting nervous for the arrival of our little bundle of joy.  I know she will be the best thing that ever happened to us and that we will love her to pieces but I also know how much work a baby is when it isn't mine so I can only imagine how much work a baby will be when it is mine.  I know our lives are going to change drastically.  I love our life right now.  I know I will love our new life too but it's scary to say goodbye to our current life.  I sometimes wonder if J realizes how much work it's going to be.  Even if he doesn't, I know he will be an active participant when Star is here.  

We worked on Star's room this week.  We have a few more things to hang and then the slipcover needs to be completed and the room is all set.  Which reminds me...we need a small fan for her room to reduce SIDS.  They say a fan circulating air reduces SIDS by 80%.  I need to get on that but where do you buy a small fan in the winter?  I've looked but heaters are all I find.  Star's lamp and baskets came in last night for her bedroom and J had them all set up when I got home.  We got this adorable little lamp from Land of Nod.  Love that place but would it kill those people to have a sale once in a while?  Anyway, we got this little bird bath lamp that looks antiqued with a white shade.

We had also forgotten about two purchases we made for her walls back in October!  They were on back order at Pottery Barn Kids and we were never called.  We would have completely forgotten had it not been for me finding the receipt in Star's closet by mistake two nights ago!  I called and they were in.  Here they are....

So sweet!  Oh! And we have decided to seal the room off from any more visitors and put Star's name up along with her initial on another wall and her monogram!  It's official, we're close!

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Christmas 2010 and packing for the big day

Christmas this year was interesting to say the least - a lot happened.  I had a great birthday - 33 feels great and I am so happy with where I am at 33.  My sweet husband got me a beautiful Coach purse for my b-day which was very sweet.  I have a love/hate relationship with Coach and he picked a great purse, a "mom-style" purse with built in organization and I loved it-but exchanged it for one size larger!  We made Santa's Snack Mix on that day and put it in jars to pass out to family and headed over to my MIL's for our annual Christmas gift exchange.  That was fun. 

Christmas morning J and I woke up and started preparing breakfast for guests we invited over.  We made two Christmas morning Casseroles the night before and made french toast that morning.  Our guests left at 11:30 or so and J and I opened our gifts to each other shortly after.  We took turns picking out gifts for each other to open.  I received a large bottle of my favorite perfume, Jadore' by Dior along with a great lotion and purse sized bottle as well as body scrub and more lotion and a face scrub by Bliss (love that stuff).  I also received a down comforter which I am excited to put on our bed.  Perhaps the best gift was a gift that came in a box I have come to love over the years...a blue Tiffany & Co. box with a red bow.  I opened it and there was a beautiful necklace with a star shaped pendant.  I knew exactly what it was in reference to but it wasn't until I opened the card which I had missed that I teared up, as did Jamie.  The card read, "Merry Christmas.  Love, Star"  It was the single sweetest moment of my holiday season.  I hugged and kissed J.  J put it on me that morning and I haven't taken it off.  The fact that he thought to do that was so sweet.  I am so lucky.


As for J, I wanted to give him something he really needed and has needed for a long time.  A new set of tools, and a tool chest and cabinet to store them in.  J has become quite the handy man over the years.  He needed a complete set of good tools and a means to organize them.  His current tool collection consisted of mis-matched odds and ends and were kept in a box.  He now has 8 drawers with liners to organize a complete set of tools as well as his first Dewalt power drill with bits.   He needed these things and I wanted him to have them before Star was here.  Every Dad needs a complete set of tools.  :)  J got to open a few gifts not related to tools, a t-shirt, a hoodie and athletic shorts with his favorite college team logo on them, a coffee gift card and a grooming tool as well.  We put his tool cabinet together and last night we used the tools for the first time to hang shelves and picture frames up in Star's room.  It was nice to know we had the tools we needed and where to find them. 


In other news we have officially started packing our hospital bag!  I have a list of what is recommended we bring by our hospital and another list from the Subfertile Frugalista of what she packed for her hospital trip.  She gives a nice account of what she used and didn't use for her hospital stay.  With both lists in hand I went out and tried to find the best buys I could.  I already had some nightgowns that would be perfect but I needed options to wear during the day as well.  I wanted versatile, loose clothing.  I checked all over and finally found these at Destination Maternity...


I got three of these 3-piece ensembles in different colors (they were only $45 for each set).  They will be perfect for the stay.  They are perfect for feedings, lounging or company when the robe is used.  I also got 4 bras, some small toiletry items, snacks and a pair of slippers to toss away after our stay.  Our hospital recommends packing a bag for Mom, one for Dad and one for Labor filled with massage items, etc.  I think our third suit case will be filled more with electronics and paper work than labor items.  We are thinking that J will stay in the hospital with me most of the time and we have a dog sitter on stand by so that is taken care of.  Here is the list of what I have packed so far and what I still need to pack...

3 nightgowns
3 pajama pants
4 pair of socks
swim suit (recommended by hospital for tub)
3 3-piece day outfits
4 nursing bras
toiletries including chap stick, head bands and pony tail holders
Go home outfit for Star

Need to pack:
J's suit case
Paper work
Go home outfit for me with Shoes
Baby book
Flip camera
Nikon camera with charger and extra disc
Cell phones/chargers
Nook (electronic book) and charger
J's lap top
Hat for Star
Car seat/base installed in car
Baby help books?


On another front...J and I went back to look at stroller's just to make sure we liked the stroller we were getting and decided on a different stroller.  The city mini is so great except for one  There is the tiniest little storage compartment on the bottom that is hardly accessible.  My purse wouldn't fit in there and I couldn't imagine a trip to the mall with a diaper bag, purse and shopping bags and no storage.  As much as I loved that stroller we had to part ways...I have pushed enough strollers to know the value of that storage below.  So we moved up one level to the City Select.  It was on sale for $399 but we went home and found it for $70 cheaper on-line and ordered it as well as the Chicco Romantic (that's the color) Car Seat with additional base which we also found for a great deal on line.  Here they are...everything in basic black because the other color options are downright SCARY!


What I love about this stroller is the baby can sit high close to us or lower and the baby can face us or out all the way up to 55 pounds and did I mention the fabulous storage?  I could but 5 of my purses down there.  It also has the capability to add a second seat in the event there is a second child...ever...which I am doubting but it's a nice option to have.   Here it is with the car seat installed and below you can see the many different ways it can be used.

So, that's about it.  We removed those items from our "need to get" list at BRU and they are on their way!  When the car seat bases come in we will go to our local fire house and have them installed in each of our cars.  Our holiday weekend was wonderful.  The best I have probably ever had and filled with love, cheer and baby gear.

Thursday, December 23, 2010

34 weeks and grateful

In addition to my update this week I wanted to write about how grateful I am for the gift, the sheer privilege, to be expecting the baby we hoped for so badly last Christmas. I sit here the day before my 33rd birthday and two days before Christmas and know that I have already received the best gift I could ever hope for.  I am a lucky, lucky girl.  I've got a baby in my belly and a husband I can't get enough of.

How far along? 34 weeks! 

Baby's size? A melon! (Confused because we have already been a melon before in this pregnancy, but maybe we are a bigger melon?)  19.5 inches!

Weight Gain? 19 pounds.

Sleep? INSOMNIA!  Up two mornings this week at 4:45 and one morning at 1:45.  Wide awake.  Turns out this is a great time to get stuff done.  Grocery lists, checking emails, catching up on recorded shows I've missed.  Then I head to work where the day drags on.  My shoulder and back are feeling better though.  The major pains are gone for now so that's good.  Terrible round ligament pain last night.  Man, those hurt.  I'll gladly deal with it but I still nod my head at Michelle Duggar.

Food? Still loving my milk.

Best moment this week? J feeling Star move after dinner the other night.  He finally felt her squirm instead of kick.  I love looking at his face when he feels something.

Movement? Lots! Especially after dinner.  I also sat in an hour meeting yesterday and watched my belly move.  It's so crazy to see it moving.  Star is still sticking her butt out a lot.  All of a sudden there's a little round ball protruding from my round belly right under my rib cage.  I always say that Star is sticking her booty out.

Symptoms? Insomnia and swelling of hands and feet.  My skin on my stomach is finally stretched pretty tight and..........SNORING.   I used to be a silent sleeper but as soon as  I lay down, like instantly, my sinuses fill and I start coughing.  I heard snoring is normal during pregnancy in our classes and several women admitted to snoring in our class but I hate the thought of snoring.  I hate that I woke J up the other morning.  Probably the only time he has gotten up before me on a work day.  I went downstairs after he got up and rounded the corner into the kitchen and he said "You're fired!"  I woke the poor guy up and he wanted to fire me as his bed mate!  I have to write about another night a few weeks ago that I went to bed early and was all tucked into my nest, drifted off to sleep while J lay beside me watching TV only to be woken by laughter..giggling...I opened my eyes and there was J, looking at me, giggling with this face of disbelief at the sounds I was making!  Waking up to someone laughing at you snore?  So embarrassing!  He told me he would have recorded it on his phone had the dog not been laying on him.  I told him he better NEVER record me girl wants to be recorded snoring!

What I miss? Nothing.

What I'm looking forward to? Our next ultrasound.  We met with Dr. B Tuesday night and he said there appears to be a large amount of amniotic fluid (which he hadn't mentioned before) and of course we know that Star measured rather large last I am looking forward to seeing what happens next ultrasound. 

Looking forward to Christmas Eve at J's Mom's again this year and I am also looking forward to Christmas morning again this year.  I have some gifts I hope J will really love and I am excited to host breakfast for the third year in a row with my brother, his wife and my niece.  J and I make Christmas morning breakfast casserole and Martha Stewart's french toast made with challah bread.  It's delicious and it makes Christmas morning that much better when you start it off with a great breakfast.  That evening we are making dinner for J's Dad and Step mom and seeing a movie.  Not excited about seeing "The fighter" but there aren't many options I like at the theatre right now unfortunately.  Oh well. 

Weekly Wisdom: I am with and be grateful for the gift of being pregnant.

Milestones: I think insomnia is a big milestone...I had been waiting for it and here it is.  I don't mind it, I kind of like getting things done with extra hours in my day but let's face it sleep is always better than little to no sleep.  

What I love: Realizing that the time is just ticking away.  I was talking to girls at work and we all said that it felt like just last week that I found out I was pregnant...I can't believe we are in week 34.  Time is flying.  Makes me understand how people look at their kids and say how time has flown by.

Emotions:  So, I have a strange pregnancy side effect.  It's reoccured my entire pregnancy and I haven't written about it but figured I should just to document it.   I don't even know how to put this without sounding super weird.  For the last 7-8 months I have had really really really sad thoughts about dogs.   These thoughts are accompanied by vivid visuals and it has happened probably 8-10 times at least.  I wrote about a terrible dream I had about our dog Bowden and his skin coming off, etc.  I woke up crying and totally upset by it for a couple of days.  That was the first or second time.  I had the same thing happen about him a few more times including the day we put him to sleep.  I relived the terrible moment we put him down in the vet's office and what I kept envisioning was the life leaving his eyes.   Then it was about my family dog growing up.  Then it was about a dog J and I saw killed in front of us on Valentines Day six years ago, then it was about my current dog, Wilson and seeing him be put to sleep in the future and then this week I have seen a large dead dog on the side of the highway on my way to work four days in a row.  It's unlike anything I have ever experienced.  My therapist is puzzled by it.  I wish it would stop happening.  It is so scary and sad.  I see something that reminds me of these things and vivid memories or visuals come and then I can't shake them.  I am usually minding my own business, not thinking of anything imparticular when a fleeting thought comes and takes over my emotions, it's happened on my way to work, ending in uncontrollable sobbing.  It happened on a run to the fabric store in the parking lot.  I hadn't even parked yet when I had to stop at a stop sign and clear my eyes and get myself together.  I am basically reliving any terrible time I had with a pet or other animal...from saying good bye, to putting them to sleep to seeing them get killed in front of me.  More so than the memories, it's the visuals which are so detailed that bothers me.  I feel like that kid that says "I see dead people".  I see dead dogs????  So, strange.  I'm really hoping this goes away after pregnancy.

Projects: We will be tackling Star's room this weekend.  I have said this the last few weeks but time is a tickin' and we gotta get moving.

Merry Christmas!

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

33 weeks - a bulleted update on vacation

The 33rd week has been an interesting week.  
  • Flying was difficult and it was hard to sit for so long with a sore back.  I used heating patches for my back in an effort to help my left shoulder.  My Dr. had told me to get up and stretch mid-flight.  I got up once on our flight from Chicago to Ft. Myers but that didn't make my feet swell any less.  My feet were so swollen after we landed and I had sharp pains in my stomach.  That night I got great sleep.
  • Shoulders, neck, hips and collar bones hurt from sleeping on both sides.  Using heating pads on a regular basis to help the pain under my shoulder blade.
  • Feet have started swelling.  Toes resemble lil' smokies more and more. 
  • Walked around the outlet mall yesterday and after three or so hours I was done.  My feet were killing me, I grew silent and couldn't think anymore.  It was fun to go into the kids stores we had never gone into before.  We are doing more shopping today.
  • Using the bathroom constantly.  Around 5-6 times per night and I think I used the bathroom 5-6 times at the outlet mall.  Sometimes I think Star just nudges my bladder and gives me the urge to go even though I just went and don't really have to.  The strange thing about going so often is that when you have to go, YOU HAVE TO GO and then you go and there is hardly anything.
  • Star is moving from side to side more now that she is running low on room and instead of kicks I am feeling her entire body squirm.  Her head is down and low.  
  • I forgot to mention last week after the Dr. appt. that I have gained 18 pounds total so far which I am thrilled with.  I don't crave anything but milk.  Ice cream doesn't even thrill me but I have had a couple of small bowls full of Blue Bell Ice Cream since I have been down in Florida.
  • My hips have started hurting and I have noticed that I waddle now.  I think it must be the relaxin that the body releases to help loosen the joints.  
It's been great being on vacation with my hubby.  He has been very helpful in helping me get comfortable when I can't seem to get comfortable.  A few more days to go...

Thursday, December 9, 2010

32 week Dr. visit-----So we're confused...

 I met Jamie at the Dr.'s office for the ultrasound and appointment with Dr. B.  We had our ultrasound first and I have to say this ultrasound was less exciting than any of the others.  Star is so big you can't see much of her on the screen.  It paled in comparison to the 4D ultrasound, too.  So the ultrasound tech is measuring star's thigh bone, her abdomen and her head and apparently these measurements all go into a formula to determine weight of the baby and therefore the due date.  We were eager to know what the result was.  The ultrasound tech. told us the weight is 5 pounds 8 ounces...LET ME SAY THAT AGAIN.... 

(Jamie just said that this puts us on pace for a line backer)

Okay, so I am a little surprised because my 32 week update this week said Star weighs just at or under 4 pounds.  My exact words to the UT were, "THAT'S A BIG BABY!"  I had all kinds of visuals.  So, we go to see Dr. B next and he looks at Star's ultrasound photos, says she looks great and then says...from the weight we have on her it looks like the due date will be January 20th.   LET ME SAY THAT AGAIN...


During our 20 week ultrasound, the Dr. predicted Star would be born February 16, 2 full weeks after her February 2 due date we got from the RE after IVF.   We now officially have a month wide window for Star to show her cute little (I mean big...but cute...) face.  Dr. B wants to do another ultrasound in January to see how she is measuring then.  He showed us her growth on a graph and while she was growing slower than average in the beginning, it now appears that she is growing above average making for a wonky graph.  Then I heard him say something about being a big baby, above the 7.5 pound average...whoa.

We discussed via cord with Dr. B and he said that it's quite expensive (Which we knew) to store the cord blood after baby and that so many people donate it so even if Star should have a problem there would be plenty of cord blood in our city to help her without the costs of storing monthly.  I like that.  We talked to him about traveling tomorrow and our trip to Florida and he highly recommended that we take our OB just in case anything should happen!  I got a good laugh out of that one.  I really love him.

One thing I did verify tonight is what has been poking out from under my rib cage.  For the last two days I have felt a big round ball protruding from under my rib cage.   It's Star's butt!  Her little bottom keeps sticking out!  Her head is officially down now and her butt is up.

 Well, that's it for now.  We're off to vacation land for  week.  I will try and update on my travel experiences.  7 hours of flying/airports should be interesting with a hurt back, shoulder and now neck.  I'm going to pack some heat patches and hopefully that will help.

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

32 Weeks- Who does Star look like?

First off...I thought it would be fun to post our baby pictures to compare with Star's 4D ultrasound pictures... we have determined the lips are probably mine but the nose we can't decide looks a little wider like J's but round like mine...check out the last post.

How far along? 32 weeks!

Baby's size? About 4 pounds. 

Weight Gain? Not sure, will find out tomorrow.  Eek.  It's been a while since I have weighed so that scares me but I have found that I eat much less now that my stomach is squished and I have started getting nauseous at the smell of foods again.  Cereal is my friend right now.  That and plain foods...again.

Sleep? Left shoulder blade is still hurting. I've tried everything I can think of to make it go away and to make the pain stop. Nothing helps.  Dr. B says that having the baby will be the only cure.  Unfortunately, I think he is right. 

Food? I have slowed down on milk.  Not sure why.  Everything else is losing it's appeal.

Best moment this week? Not this week so much as last week when we saw Star.  That was special.  J and I posted the pictures on our facebook pages and I have to say it was funny when J's Dad called after the ultrasound and seeing the pictures on Facebook.  We had posted the pictures on Facebook and referred to the baby as 'Star'.  We haven't told anyone the baby's name so when J's Dad saw 'Star'.  He told us he was a little shocked by the name.  J and I kind of laughed and when his Dad reiterated that 'Star' wasn't exactly a name he was expecting.  I looked at J and said, I think he doesn't understand that Star is her nickname.  J said "Dad, you realize that Star is just a nickname and not what her name will actually be, right?"  And his Dad said "oh yeah, I was just surprised when I saw it, that's all."  (I think he really thought we were naming her Star.)  Hopefully, he will have a better reaction to the real name we have chosen.  He has told us how much he likes the name Olivia a couple of times.  Another milestone this week is our second-second wedding anniversary. December 6, 2008 we had our second wedding in Mexico. 

Movement? Lots! Star has started sticking limbs out to stretch which I can see when my stomach stretches.  So strange.

Symptoms? Aversion to foods again.

Gender? A beautiful little girl

What I miss? Nothing.

What I'm looking forward to? Our next Dr.'s appointment, the ultrasound before hand and VACATION.  I just want to relax and not have to worry about making it to work after little to no sleep and spending 9 grueling hours in a chair with a hurt shoulder for one week.  For one week, I want to sleep in if I don't sleep during the night or lounge around instead of sit at a desk hour after hour.

Weekly Wisdom: Keep calm and carry on.

Milestones: 4 day ultrasound
What I love: Counting down the weeks until Star arrives.

Emotions: I am doing much better emotionally this week. 

Projects: I'm waiting until my long weekend on Christmas to get more projects done.  Chop-chop!  Time to crack down and knock out these pesky line items!

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Star's 4D Ultrasound Photos

Just 4 of the 50 we received.  I look at them often.  I'm in love.

Monday, December 6, 2010

Weekend Recap

What a busy weekend.  It started off Friday afternoon with a 4D ultrasound of Star.  It was great to get to see her features.  She's pretty much what I expected her to look like oddly enough.  Okay, even cuter than I had imagined.  I am so happy she looks perfect and even had chubby cheeks and a chubby chin with the most kissable lips.  Oh my gosh, her lips...they are adorable.  It was difficult to get a great picture because the umbilical cord was next to her face but I am happy with what we saw.  I am happy that she looks great and healthy.  I love that I can picture her now.  She was sucking on her hand and her feet were by her face.  It's so neat to see what she is doing in there on video.  I am going to bring the video to Florida so we can show J's Grandma.  The video is better than the pictures in my opinion.  Watching her move is magical as opposed to feeling it and guessing what she is doing.  I will hopefully post some pictures here Wednesday along with J's baby picture and my baby picture so we can compare!

Friday night we had J's company party.  It was fun and I was very touched when all of his employees got together and gave him a gift bag stating how much he means to them.  He is very appreciated as their manager and I love that.  I know he is amazing but to know that his employees see it too is so great.  He received a gift bag with an hour massage, a $75.00 gift card to a Sushi restaurant, a "South Butt" (similar to north face) jacket and a framed photo of his staff.  I snuck off to bed before everyone left-I was impressed that I made it to 11:00 actually.

Saturday we had a seamstress come to the house and look at the glider in Star's room.  I am waiting for pricing for a slip cover and hope that if the pricing works out she will get started during our trip to Florida. 

Saturday I got ready for a dinner with my girls who were in town.  We went to dinner and a lingerie party for my friend Denise.  My friends Anna and Kristen came in town.  It was so great to get together.  I miss them so much and it is so nice to talk with girlfriends.  The lingerie party went great but I ducked out before the limo came so  I could get some rest before our childbirth class the next morning.

Child birth class started at 8:00 am.  We got to the hospital and signed in by 7:40 leaving us 20 minutes to check out both nurseries at the hospital.  We saw lots of babies but there was this one little boy that caught our eye.  He was alert and two days old and just perfectly content lying in his little portable crib looking around the room.  Others were crying and sleeping, this little boy was so calm and it was so neat to watch him looking around just taking it all in.  During the first break J and I went back to the nursery and there was a set of twins right up next to the window. 
Back to the class...It was mind numbing.  It was painful.  It was boring.  A couple of the classes we had already taken went over a lot of this class.  We spent an hour going over what to expect when you are pregnant..."uh, lady...we've been pregnant 7-8 months.  We get it."  We were the only couple in class that took the breastfeeding and infant care class.  No one else had taken any other classes which surprised me.  At one point when we laid on the floor to 'practice relaxing' with our pillows, lullaby music on and lights off, J and I actually tried sleeping and ignored everything the teacher was saying.  We didn't learn as much as I had hoped unfortunately but I am glad we took it because we did learn some things.  I found it interesting that after going around the room everyone in the room wanted an epidural, including myself.  I am for laboring as long as I can manage without an epidural but when it becomes too much I am all for an epidural.  I would like to enjoy some of Star's birth.  We also got a tour of the labor and delivery floor and the two recovery floors and saw the recovery room for women after c-sections.  I like to have the "lay of the land" so that was nice. 

I guess what we found out that was most interesting was:
  • what to expect after delivery (and I mean, what to expect 'down there')  The nurse teaching the class showed us the mesh underwear and the pad the size of a Volkswagen Beatle.  YOWZA!  J and I both looked at each other in amazement at the size of that pad.  I think it was as long as the ladies arm...not kidding.
  • We found out that c-section rates are 39-40%.  Crazy.
  • 800 babies are born each month at our hospital.  They don't call it the baby factory for nothing.
  • The reason I chose our hospital is because they have the only Level 3 NICU in our area.  It's brand new, like 3 months old.  I hope we never see it but it is there which is great and babies are brought here from other hospitals because it's so advanced.  She briefly touched on this.
  • We can request a room with a tub in it upon arrival if one is available.  If not, we can ask for a room with a shower or use one of a few birth tub rooms during labor. 
  • We can request to have 'bedside admit' where the baby is bathed and assessed right on me after delivery or next to the bed if necessary.  J and I are both interested in this.  I want her placed skin to skin if possible after delivery whether it be J's skin or mine-not placed under warming lamps and assessed across the room.
  • I can also request that J be present at all times with her after a c-section and that she be placed skin to skin with him if I am not able to hold her.
Ready for this week to fly by so we can get on with our vacation.  This is the first vacation that I feel I actually NEED.

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

31 weeks-Busy, busy, busy.

It's my 31st week and though things feel completely out of whack I am still happy and there is no amount of discomfort that could make me say otherwise.   I've noticed I am emotional this week.  I was loading the dishwasher Monday evening when I thought I could cry.  For what?  Nothing.  Just felt like I could cry.  Tuesday I had a sad moment on my way to work and Wednesday I had one at my desk.  I am exhausted and I couldn't fit another item into my schedule if I had to. 

I am tired.  I am sleeping but have set up my bed on the sofa once again.  This is the second night I have slept downstairs.  My left shoulder is hurting now constantly; all day and especially when I try to sleep.  Heating pads help but not much.  The only thing that helps me fall asleep is the arsenal of pillows I surround myself with.  Pillows propped in such a way that I can rest my arm in a position that will allow it to not irritate my shoulder.  The sofa provides back support which I like too.  I am worried about sleeping in Florida while on vacation.  I am worried that I won't have my maternity pillow which is the foundation of the nest I make myself each night-even on the sofa.  I also sleep with a stuffed animal that I place under my belly to prop it up and a tiny pillow under my chest to prop it up.  Along with three full size pillows of different thicknesses, a smaller pillow to support my arm, a heating pad rolled up and stuffed in my bra and a fan.   It's insane but it's the only way I feel completely pain free and comfortable.  Each time I get up to use the bathroom at night I have to remake my nest.  A pain but again, the only way.  Two nights now I have slept from about 8:30 to 7 the next morning.  I could easily sleep longer.  I know being this tired is part of the third trimester so I am rolling with it but it's hard to face the holiday season and all of it's stresses with a yawn and no energy.

As with every weekend right now we have a lot going on this weekend.  Friday afternoon we have our 4D ultrasound.  I am excited for this.  I hope they are able to see Star's face.  I know that sometimes the face can be covered or the baby can be faced down towards the spine.  J told me last night that he is "very excited" which makes me happy.  I feel like the ultrasounds are his time to bond with the baby if that makes sense.  I carry her and feel her multiple times a day so for him to get to see her is special.  I am excited for him to see her more so than I am for myself.

Friday night we are hosting J's employees and their spouses at our home.  This has only been planned for a week and a half and I hope it goes well.  I feel totally unprepared which is not usually the case for me.  I am usually over prepared.  I can't believe I will be lying down getting an ultrasound with less than 4 hours until twenty-something guests arrive at our door.  I would normally take the morning off of work too but I am saving every minute of PTO that I can.  At least it's being catered and we will have the help of servers at the party.  Seeing as how I am asleep by 9:00 currently I am not sure how I will stay awake very long once guests arrive at 7:00. 

Saturday I have a lingerie party to attend for a friend of mine that is getting married.  There is a bachelorette party afterwards which I am skipping thanks very much.  Going to buy lingerie while 7 months pregnant was strange.  I felt strange buying it for someone else for starters but even more strange for looking through lingerie with a big belly.  Yilkth!  I can picture myself in a strappy number laying in my pillow nest.  Yeah, right.  Saturday during the day I have nothing going on and would normally squeeze a project in but I know right now I won't have the energy.  There are still projects for Star's room and our time is running out.  I can literally see the sand in the hour glass passing before my eyes.  I am counting on some of Christmas and New Year's break to finish these.

Sunday we have our childbirth class from 8 - 4.  That's a long day.  I know it will be informative and I am so glad to be taking this class with J but I am not looking forward to giving up an entire Sunday.  J isn't either for that matter.  He will be tivo'ing his football games.

Next week is our last week in town before vacation and I am hoping it flies by.   I am also nervous about packing.  We are leaving Friday night so I won't have anytime but the week nights to pack for our trip and I am so tired at night after work.  It's going to take a lot to pack too as I am going to have to be creative with clothes since most of what I have is winter attire.  I guess I will start Saturday and add things as I go through the week.

Did I mention I made appointments for two pediatricians in the upcoming weeks?  One of the Peds. is our OB's grand children's Pediatrician and so far from his reviews on line I like him the most.  The problem...we can't get into interview him until Jan 18.  He only does interviews on Tuesdays.  One of the referrals has an average wait time of 30 minutes-  Another referral doesn't do interviews and meets the baby after they are no.  We have a Ped. office very close to our home that I wanted to check out as well so I scheduled an appointment there for Dec. 22 as well.  I think I know which one we will end up with but I hate to wait until Jan. 18 to make the decision when Star is due just a few weeks from that point. 

Well, I guess that about covers it for week 31.  And for the record I made a new record-a gallon of milk in two and a half days.  I can't get enough of the stuff.  Jamie calls me his veal which made me laugh.  As soon as he said it he said "I can see that getting posted on the blog."  Here you go babe!


I thought an awful lot about how thankful I am last week.  I thought about it before Thanksgiving.  I thought about it daily as a matter of fact.  I summed it up by saying that I am thankful for everyone that has touched my life this past year.  That sounds so flippant in a way but so many people touched our lives and I am grateful for them all. 

I asked Jamie what he was thankful for Thanksgiving morning and he gave me a smile and pointed to himself (jokingly) which is so typical for my husband.   Thanksgiving evening, he made the most beautiful statement about all he is grateful for. 
It's been a hard year and sometimes I don't think I realize how hard it's been until I stop and think about it.  I didn't realize how hard the infertility process was until I made it to this side.  We are seven months pregnant with a little girl and I can still hardly believe it.  I am thankful each and every day for our gift.  I am thankful for my husband who was the best friend and nurse I could have asked for.  He was so supportive and made it to 98% of the appointments and gave me 99% of my injections.  He handled all of the calls to the pharmacy and I will never forget waking up on Mother's Day to find him gone.  He had run to the pharmacy to pick up more IVF medications.  He was amazing during that process.  He's amazing now.  He is going to make a great father.  He is comprised of the best part of each of his parents and Grandmother.  I love that about him. 

I'm thankful for the medical professionals in our lives this past year.  They helped to create our dream and for that I will be forever grateful.  I am so thankful for the Doctors and the nurses and the rest of the staff at Wash. U.

I'm thankful for my husbands family who supported both of us through the process and were there for us.

I'm thankful for my friends, Emily, Anna, Kristen and Denise who I rarely get to see but who I love dearly.

I am thankful for my dog, Wilson.  He watched me leave this morning as I backed out of our driveway for work and will be there to greet me when I come home tonight from work like he does everyday.  Dogs are great.  Each day J and I are greeted like we are the best things to walk through the door and I gotta tell matter what happened before you walk through the door, it somehow disappears when a furry friend is there to greet you.

I am thankful for J's job and especially his manager.  J has done very well his first year at a new job, actually that's an understatement.  He's done amazingly well.  J and his manager have a great connection that I hope will continue.  They both love Phish and they are both just weeks away from having their first children, both baby girls.

These are just a few things/people I am thankful for.  There are so many.  I am so fortunate in so many ways and it's the few people I surround myself with that I owe so much of my happiness to.

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

30 weeks! Single digit we come??????

How far along? 30 weeks!  I can't believe we could be in the single digit weeks until Star arrives!  I say "could be" because Dr. B thinks she will be two weeks late which will still put us in the double digits for a couple more weeks.  I just can't wait to meet our sweet girl. 

Baby's size? A squash!  17 inches!  I feel like I have something 6 inches in my belly, not 17!  Goodness!

Weight Gain? Not sure what it is this week. 

Maternity clothes? Uh, yeah.

Sleep? Left shoulder blade is still hurting.  I slept on the sofa last night for the first time in a while and have been taking Tylenol PM to help me get to sleep.  It makes getting up in the morning difficult.

Food? Still loving my milk.  I almost went through two gallons last week.  I drank one gallon in four days.  My husband calls me his milk-a-holic...milk-a-what?

Best moment this week? Star had hiccups two nights ago.  It was sweet.  I was lying in bed and told J that star was hiccuping and he said "how do you know she isn't just kicking?"  I said "because what I am feeling has rhythm and she doesn't have rhythm yet."  Her hiccups let me know exactly where her head is lying.  It's on my right side down low and her feet are on my left.  When J goes to feel her kick he always puts his hand in the same spot, that's where her feet have been the whole time.

Another milestone this week is our second wedding anniversary.  J and I have two wedding anniversaries.  Our first was on the beach in Florida with only his Grandmother as a witness on Nov. 25, 2008 and the second was two weeks later in Mexico with family and friends on Dec. 6, 2008.  We celebrate both.  I can safely say that these past two years have been our best even with the craziness of infertility.  We've been together over 9 years (actually we have even lived together for 9 years-I left my dorm room vacant to live with him.  My sorority sisters put a for rent sign on my door!  But I knew then it was serious.  I spent every minute outside of my classes with him.) As great of a ride as the last 9 years have been, it wasn't until a couple of years ago something clicked.  It's different.  We've always been happy but now it's undeniable that we fit.  We belong.  It's so easy.  We still make each other laugh and that's one of my favorite things.  I am so lucky.  I don't know what I did to deserve him but I thank my lucky stars all of the time that I have him.

Movement? Lots!  I try and get J to feel her move but she sometimes stops moving just as he comes over to feel. 

Symptoms? Not at all.

Gender? A beautiful little girl

What I miss? Nothing.

What I'm looking forward to? Our 4D ultrasound.  She's getting pretty big now and I know sometimes the babies can't be seen because they are smushed in the womb so I am hoping we get a clear glimpse of her face.  I would love to see some features! 

Weekly Wisdom:   Keep calm and carry on.

Milestones:  We had our breastfeeding class last week and it was very informative. 

What I love: Our glider.  It's my favorite color-white!  The people I picked it up from had never seen a white one before.  I didn't necessarily want to order a white glider but I didn't want to order a pink one either because we may not be able to use it again in the future in another room.  Brown didn't fit the bill so white it was.  It's beautiful though.  I am going to have a slipcover made for the arms and the ottoman that are washable.  I figure these will be the places that get dirtiest.  The glider fabric is cleanable but I'd like to protect it rather than clean it if I can.

Emotions: Their okay.  I have my moments where I stress out of sheer tiredness sometimes.  We had five friends over for dinner Saturday night and right before they showed up I was so tired that had they not been coming over I would have gone to bed.  It's the first time I would have loved a glass of wine!  I had a shot of coca-cola instead.   A pick me up.  I have to say I haven't seen a couple of our guests so trashed in a long time!  The liquor was free flowing that night!  It's funny watching people get drunk when you are perfectly sober.  Reminds me of our wedding night.  Next Friday we will be hosting 15 or so of J's employee's and their spouses/significant others at our home.  I am hoping that since this is catered I won't be running as ragged as I was last Saturday. 

Projects:  The bassinet our friends gave us is ready and clean.  I made an ultrasound album for Star.  She has so many pictures and with two more ultrasounds to go, she's going to have many more.  I also made her a keepsake box with all of our keepsakes from IVF in it.  My calendar is in there, all of the cards we received from J's Mom as well as cards from J, my ID bracelet from egg retrieval, a rose J's mom put on my car the morning we had our first beta.  It's a special box to go along with Star's blog book and ultrasound book.  Everything is organized and each item has a note to say what it is.    Upcoming projects include the collage over Star's dresser and paint touch-ups as well as slip covers for the glider.  I am hoping J will tackle the paint touch-ups.  :)

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

29 Weeks

Star is kicking up a storm!  I feel her multiple times an hour every hour now.  I'm still in awe when she moves.  She usually kicks when something is pressed up against my belly.  She was kicking me where the key board at work touches my stomach and it was a little annoying trying to type an important email while having someone kicking the keyboard!  But you gotta laugh, right?  I read and was told by our class instructor last Saturday that she can actually see in the womb!  There is a little light in certain conditions where she can see shaddows, etc.  So cool as she started blinking a couple of weeks ago. 

Monday was a day that started out terrible at 7:15 AM and just got worse through out the day.  At 2:30 I was at my breaking point and that's when I saw our company mail guy walking down my aisle at work with a package of flowers.  They landed right on my desk.  I couldn't believe it.  I opened the package and there sat the most beautiful arrangement of sunflowers.  Bright yellow to brighten my day.  The note inside was very sweet but I was confused by the "_ _ _ _ all the rest." at the bottom of the note.  My husband who sent the flowers told me later that he went back and forth with the florist trying to get them to use the "f" word on the card but the florist wouldn't so he asked them to put "f_ _ _" at the bottom and they wouldn't so that explained the _ _ _ _ !  Ha ha.  He's right his note he told me to focus on the good and that I am loved and am part of a growing family.  My life is headed in the right direction and _ _ _ _ all the rest!  I love that.  I emailed J to thank him, I couldn't even call because I would have broken down over the phone when I thanked him.   He's so thoughtful and the only reason Monday turned out okay was because of him.

Breastfeeding class is Thursday night.  We need to interview Pediatricians too.  Our Dr. gave us the name of some good ones.  We also put a deposit down on first year photos for the baby.  6 sessions the first year including a maternity session if we want it.  The first shoot will take place within a week of Star's birth.  She'll be so little and scrumptious at that point.  I am excited for that.  4D ultrasound was also scheduled.  We have a 3D and a 4D within a week of each other so we can compare photos!  My next appointment is my last monthly appointment and then I start going to the Dr. every two weeks!  I can't believe it. 

Jamie's Dad and Step Mom stopped by to see Star's nursery and bathroom Sunday night.  They loved it which made me feel good.  I am hoping to pick up the glider we ordered this weekend.  It's ready and at the warehouse.  We have friends coming over for "Phamily" dinner (dinner with Phish friends) on Saturday night so it would be nice to have the glider in so they can see the room a little more complete.  Everything is done for the most part, we are focusing on wall decor really.  I am going to try and take pictures when the glider comes in this weekend.

That's about it.   Looking forward to the big 3-0.  I can't believe it's here.  I am expecting the last part of the pregnancy to fly by with Holidays and a Vacation.  We can't wait to meet star.

Monday, November 15, 2010

Weekend recap-

This weekend was one of those weekends with highs and lows...

Saturday morning we were up early to attend our "Newborn care in a day" class at the hospital.  The Class was from 8-3 and when we arrived at 7:45 we passed by the nursery and were surprised to see more than 30 babies in one nursery.  They were all waiting for the pediatricians and for their parents to come get them.  J and I stood in awe and as he admitted to me later it was emotional.  He got emotional, I got emotional.  I couldn't believe that we would one day have a baby in that room.  It felt like we were seeing our future and seeing the vibrant light at the end of our tunnel.  It was a special moment and other classmates joined us in disbelief as well.  We all stared and made comments and oohed and awed.  We finally made it to the class room and were the first couple in and took a seat near the front of the room.  Introductions were made by the teacher and 9 other couples.  There was a set of triplets and twins being expected in our class.  God help both of them.  Babies are expensive and I heard the Dad of the twins gasp when the other lady announced she was having triplets.  When it came to the formula discussion and the price of formula I heard more noises from both couples.  The teacher/nurse was amazing.  Very funny too.  We talked about everything from what we would need for a newborn to safety to a little breastfeeding, diaper changing, bathing, etc.  We found out that we need some more clothing items.  We have done pretty well so far but there were specifics we needed to put on our registry as a reminder to get.  We also found out that babies born in the winter should have one layer more of clothes on than we do, so that gave us an idea as to how many clothes we need.  We're on the right track!  The breastfeeding part freaks the crap out of me because I want to so badly but she did say that women with Breast Reductions have more difficulty.  As J says, maybe since we had such a hard time getting pregnant this one thing may be easy for us.  There were videos on the breastfeeding and pictures of the "liquid gold" or colostrum that comes out first.  It was all very interesting but I started getting anxious and fearful.  J really wants me to breastfeed and I know formula is very expensive and not as good for the baby-there's just a lot of pressure there.

  A few breaks and a lunch break and the day was over.  One really funny thing to note...there was a couple that sat across from us.  The father took all the notes and flipped through the packets we were given, he diapered the baby, changed the clothes and participated in class while his wife sat looking pissed off the entire day with nothing in front of her.  Jamie nick-named her "the puss".  At particularly pouty moments J would turn to me and say "look at the puss".  I died laughing because she just looked pissed!  I think this was normal for her too, not just a one day thing or because she was mad at her husband.  That poor poor man!  I still laugh at "look at the puss!"

Saturday afternoon I was exhausted from the class and was just about to go upstairs for  a nap when J said he was bored so we went to the mall near our house and just strolled around looking at kids stores.  Our mall has like 8 kids stores including PB Kids which is great but expensive!  We bought more towels for Star so we wouldn't have to use the nice decorative ones we got there the week before and J really liked the toothbrush holder and soap dish so we got those as well.  Not that she will use them for years but they matched the set and we probably wouldn't be able to get them later on so it made sense.  We looked for sale items on clothes at other stores but didn't see any great bargains except for one jumper J liked for $2.25 so we bought it and we went back home.

We had a lazy night at home.  We made Chinese food and I watched J watch hockey on TV while watching college football on his laptop.  I knew I needed something to do so I started working on the bassinet we were given.  Our friends had a seamstress sew on a green ruffle.  I took the ruffle off and cleaned it and it looks great now.  I went to bed and my amazing husband who had a large cup of coffee at 8:00 went grocery shopping at 10:00!  I felt so bad not going but there was no way, I was so tired.  We went through our coupons together came up with a light list and he left.   I woke up the next morning to a stocked pantry and fridge.  He got a huge hug in the morning!  What a treat.

Sunday morning I went to see my Grandma with my brother.  I came home and met Jamie and we went to the local schools craft fair or crap fair as J calls it.  He wanted to go because he was afraid of what I would buy!  Hilarious.  I tried telling him I could be in and out of there in 15 minutes because I knew what I was looking for-one of a kind handmade items for Star's room but he didn't believe me and likes to have a say in what goes in her room.  I think that's great so I was thrilled he came.  I got to see my old high school as well.  I hadn't been to a craft fair in a good 15 years so I assumed that crafts had come along with the times and I would be able to find some items that were more modern like Etsy sells-WRONG!!!!!!!  J and I walked around in disbelief at the CRAP at this CRAP FAIR!  We kept asking "Who would buy that?"  and then glanced over at who would make that!  Over and over and over again it was stuff I think I saw at my last craft fair 15 years ago!  I came home and searched Etsy.  I vowed to never go back to a crap fair again!

Yesterday afternoon I noticed some wet colostrum in the afternoon!  I was so excited that I told Jamie and he was really happy too.  It was my first time of feeling like things might be okay in the breast feeding area after all.  I am so thrilled to just see evidence that I am working like I should and that the surgery hasn't severed everything as I feared it may have.  I am trying to tell myself that it's not the end of the world if it doesn't happen but that was a great sign and something that lifted my spirits.

Last night, J and I did a lot of laundry.  We did our laundry and then we decided to do Star's laundry with her special "free" detergent.  We didn't have anywhere to put her clothes for the longest time so her closet was full of hanging onezies and sleepers.  Now that her dresser is done we decided to wash everything and put things away.  Her closet is almost empty now except for a couple of hanging outfits and her first Halloween costume which I got on sale after this Halloween.

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

28 Fabulous Weeks!

How far along? 28 splendid weeks!

Baby's size? Still...A big ol' eggplant!

Weight Gain? 12 pounds total.  I tell you it's scary seeing the number climb on the scale at first but then you remember you're pregnant.  Phew!!!!

Maternity clothes? I ordered a coat this weekend.  I hate to spend money on a huge coat but I realized it's that or nothing, it was on sale so the guilt isn't so bad.

Sleep? Shoulders are still hurting, however, they hurt less than they have been.  I've been awake the last couple of nights between 1 and 4 then snoozing when my alarm goes off for work at 6:30.  It's not easy working a full day after your sleep has been compromised.  I get very tired around 2:00 in the afternoon.  I have been drinking a cup of coffee more often in the mornings.

Food? Big news here.  I had barbecue sauce at lunch yesterday and I didnt' gag.  CBW catered our work lunch and I ordered a BBQ chicken wrap because nothing else sounded good.  It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. 

Best moment this week? Besides feeling Star move and my Dr.'s appointment yesterday the best moment was my heart to heart with J last night.  We talked for about 45 minutes in bed after he tickle attacked me for 15 minutes to find out what was bothering me-I was having a rough day.  I gave in once I started cramping from the tickles.  That guy knows every tickle spot I have-behind the knees and the collar bone!  So I gave in and told him what was bothering me and it was one of the rare moments I have with him from time to time where he wasn't watching the TV or looking at the computer while we talked or checking his email/facebook from his cell phone.  I shared, he listened, he shared, I listened and we went back and forth for a long time jumping from subject to subject.  Completely understanding each other and acknowledging.  I laid on my back in bed while he kissed my belly a few times which was so sweet.  Star moved also which he was able to feel.  Times like these are so powerful to me.    They build us up and make us stronger.  I love that we're able to talk about things, and we don't yell.  We give space, we don't intrude or invade-with the exception of tickle attacks.  We ended up talking about how we both feel the the two last years have been the best years of "us" which I believe is amazing having been through infertility and being newlyweds.  I love that.  It's effortless which I don't know that I expected this period in our life to be. 

Movement? Lots!  I put the remote on my belly Sunday night to show J how big star can kick and she didn't let us down.  The remote started rocking.

Symptoms? None.  Everything is going so well it scares me. 

Gender? A beautiful little girl

What I miss? Nothing.

What I'm looking forward to? Our next Dr.'s appt December 9th when we get to see Star again.  I'm not looking forward to my 1 hour Glaucoma test in two Fridays.  Ugh...

Weekly Wisdom:   If you have a husband that attends each OB appointment, count your blessings.  Not every woman is so lucky (some don't want their husbands to :) but two nurses yesterday told me how lucky I am to have a husband that comes to each appointment.  I am lucky.  He's so involved and I love that.  Whether it's decorating the babies room, Doctors appointments or registering J wants to be involved and be part of the process.  I love that.  I think that's why couples baby showers started becoming popular.   A lot of men are more involved these days and thus I believe couples showers are seeing a rise in popularity.  J has been especially involved since we went through IVF and I'm glad we live in a generation that can recognize men during this time as well the women. 

Milestones: Our first class is this Saturday!  I'm very excited to do this with J.

What I love: The two toddler sized shirts my Grandfather sent me out of the blue.  I received them in the mail Monday and they are so sweet!  Two shirts with a patchwork bunny sewn to each shirt.  No note or anything, typical for my Grandfather but what a neat unexpected treat in the mail.  Love that.

Emotions: Feeling a bit stressed this week. 

Misc.: Dr. appointment went great yesterday.  Dr. B said everything looks great and is still very pleased.  I had my second shot for Rh----lovely.  Our next appointment is the day before we leave for vacation.  We will have an ultrasound which I am thrilled about! 

Projects this weekend:  include sewing a new cover on a bassinet our friends gave us and making an ultrasound photo album for Star...she has so many pictures already!  I'm hoping that J will do the couple of remaining finishing touches to Star's bathroom and screw on the vent covers upstairs so we can start making a collage for the wall above her dresser.  Very excited for that.  :)

Monday, November 8, 2010

Weekend Happenings

The extra hour sure added a lot to our weekend.  Yesterday felt like it went on forever.  J and I kept joking that we were out of whack.  Wilson was asking for dinner at 3:30, I gave in, it's hard to explain time changes to a dog.  J and I weren't hungry until 6:30 or so when I finally made dinner.  And after dinner we just watched TV and surfed the internet until it was finally bed time.  We basically waited all day for the day to be over and it kept going on and on and on!  Not bad, just a little odd. 

Saturday we went to Pottery Barn Kids and returned a lamp and a shelf we had purchased.  PB's white furniture is actually off white, so off white it's actually light yellow and it didn't mesh well with the bright white furniture we have so we returned those two items and selected a cute flower shower curtain, bath mat and two sets of adorable towels that match for Star's bathroom.  The bathroom is just shy of complete which feels great!  Next weekend I want to finish up that room and check it off the list for good!  After PB we went to Treasure Rooms where we looked for a replacement lamp (no luck), asked questions about strollers and pumpkin seats and looked at diaper bags.  After a lot of thought and consideration we selected this stroller...

It's the City Mini Stroller!  We can hook a Chicco pumpkin seat in this instead of the chicco stroller that is supposed to accompany the pumpkin seat.  We like this stroller more because it glides like it's on air, it can be picked up and folded with one arm and it takes up half the space that the chico stroller takes up when folded.  It's also good for the mall or the zoo instead of having two different strollers.  We can get away with one stroller for all uses.  To accommodate the chicco pumpkin seat, we just install a bar over the seat and we're off.  We also liked the optional cup holder and drink tray for the little one...later on.  Very excited about our choice and I owe it all to my hubby.   We looked at diaper bags here too and didn't decide on any particular one but the Diaper Dude seems like a nice bag.  It even comes with a check list on the inside flap for the guys.  Ha!  On that check list...the very last item is the baby!   LOL! 

Next, it was over to Lowe's for a couple of items, then a brief stop for Mexican and then over to BRU for some more baby information.  We wanted to check out the price of their City Mini Stroller and Chicco seats.  We figured while we were there we would update our empty registry which to me serves as more of a check list of things we would like to get over the next few months rather than a gift registry.  We can do our research and add things to the list so we have a running list of what we have researched.  We registered for the City Mini there as well as the Chicco seat. 

While in that area we registered for the Medela Hands Free breast pump.  I am not sure I will be able to breast feed at all due to a breast reduction I had 12 years ago and the fact that none of my friends have had success with this but if I were to breastfeed I liked what Julia and others have had to say about the Medela Breast Pump (in particular the free style which is hands free because I would have to pump at work) so we added that to our list.  I can't believe how expensive that thing is and I am investigating other ways of obtaining this without breaking the bank.  We looked at bath tubs, high chairs, swings, vibrating chairs, etc.  I hated all of the pink stuff!   The pink items weren't cute pink, they were cheesy, hit you over the head, over the top, make you want to vomit pink.  We opted for neutral items instead which I still wasn't in love with but it was the better of the options for us.   

Anyway, we put about 46 items on our list there and then we were off to Sam's to stock up on diapers, toilet paper and paper towels and then it was off to the grocery store-2 grocery stores to be exact.  6.5 hours later we were done after J chewed me out about how much I spent on lettuce and cursing out a sprinkler valve in the parking lot.  (He called it a f_ cker after tripping over it!  I had to try and contain my laughter as I trailed behind him because he looked right at it and said "F-cker".  LOL!)  It turns out the man can only handle 6 hours out which I must say is far more than he used to tolerate-about 5.5 hours more!  And for the record it wasn't me pushing us to visit all of these places-my feet were killing me two hours in!  I'm proud of him though.  After giving him an hour at home to do nothing he came around to his usual self and was smiles when I poked at him for calling that sprinkler out!  He just needed time to decompress.  It happens.

We watched sports all night (actually I watched J watch sports-I was bored out of my mind) and hung out making dinner and then Sunday we did projects around the house, had lunch with J's Dad which I love doing because he's so funny and then it was back home for the longest afternoon, evening of our lives!  I did manage to go back over our BRU registry and check reviews on most of the items we put on the registry.  It's a good thing too because a couple of items had terrible ratings so we were able to update to new items. 

Dr.'s visit is tomorrow night.  No ultrasound or anything, just routine and then a newborn care class this Saturday (8-3).  We're also scheduling our 4D ultrasound in the next month or two.  I was thinking late November, early December but now I'm thinking mid-December after our trip to Florida so she fattens up a little bit (I've read it's best then) and we can see more of her features.  We are very excited to see Star in 4D and I should have lots of pictures to share!  Yay!

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

27 weeks 3rd Trimester!

A lot of milestones today!  I am officially in my third trimester!   Star is over 2 pounds and around 15 inches long.  I still can't believe something that big is in my belly.   When she moves she doesn't feel that big but I am definitely feeling more and more these days.  The last couple of weeks I have really been into oreo cookies.  Rarely do you see the small 6 packs of them and I was wanting them really bad last week at work so I walked to the grocery store and purchased a regular size bag of them and put them out on my desk for others to share.  They were gone in a couple of hours.  I secretly regret sharing them now as I want more oreos! 

Today, I went walking at lunch with a couple of co-workers and stopped at a convenience store and they had a six pack of them (the little snack size) so I am good for today!  My other must have for the last couple of months is milk.  I go through a little over a gallon a week just by myself.  My favorite thing to do when I get home is have a glass of milk which usually turns into two glasses which then leads to three.  You know what they say "one milk, two milk, three milk, FLOOR!" or is that Tequila they were talking about? 

Anyway...I am happy to report that my "bestie" J is back in town and I am happier than ever with him by my side.  He got Baby C a cute little onezie from his Phish concerts...

This baby is gonna like Phish, I am convinced that I will be the outcast in our home.  The dog is named after a Phish song, the babies wardrobe is half Phish (exaggeration) and my husband...well, you know the story there.  I started making a lullaby play list for Star.  We are putting an ipod in her room so we can play soft music.  J and I are combining 100 Baby Einstein songs and some of our favorite music selections that are soft melodies to make one play list for her.  It's turning out great so far, I have a feeling there will be a lot of Phish in the mix. 

Hoping to wrap up some projects this weekend.  I think we will get a lot done around the house which I am excited about.  As much as I want to get some projects out of the way I want to schedule some R&R time with my Jamie too.  I'm thinking dinner out one night and a lot of TV time.  I don't really care if we watch one of my shows or sports I just want to enjoy him being home.  It's been a couple of weeks since he felt Star move so hopefully he'll get to feel how big and strong she's getting. 

Sleep has been better the last couple of nights.  I was going to stay on the sofa when J came home the other night until he informed me that grown-ups sleep in beds.  So I brought all of my pillows up and managed to get good sleep two nights in a row.  Maybe I just needed him home?  Maybe my back brace is helping and I'm not in such pain anymore?  I have been feeling better at night but still need a little heating pad action on my back before sleeping. 

Lunch is over, better get back to work.  I am already excited for my Oreos I will have for my afternoon snack and there just happens to be milk in the refrigerator!  YAY!

Monday, November 1, 2010

Missing J and weekend happenings

I miss my J.  Isn't he a cutie?  He's been gone since early Thursday morning and things just aren't the same with out him.  What do you do with out your other half?  What do you do without the better part of you?  I've been doing okay for the most part but I am ready for him to be back.  I miss him but as badly as I do...I have a policy of sorts.  When he is on his guys vacations enjoying himself I don't call him.  I let him call me.  This has always been my policy.  We text a few times a day but I never want to be a nagging wife.  It's important to me that he enjoy his time away with his friends and I believe it's good to let him separate himself from life here when he is doing his guy thing.  I think this lets him get away and come back refreshed in a sense.  Should I need him I know he is a phone call away but calling to check in on him or make small talk defeats the purpose of a vacation.   Besides, I trust him so what is the need for checking up on him?  I text him good morning when I get up and good night when I go to bed.  He calls me twice a day at his convenience and it works perfectly. 

This is J's last trip to see his favorite band, Phish, before the baby is due and I told him not to think of it as his last hoorah or anything like that.   Some of his friends wives called their husbands last trip before their baby "the last hoorah" and I don't think that's good for anyone.  If J gives up his passion for seeing Phish, then I lose one of the many aspects I love and admire about my husband.  Then, we are both losing.  It will no doubt be more difficult to make Phish fit our schedule with a little one but I think it's important for us that Phish remains a staple in our home.  Happiness needs to be a staple for anyone to be happy. 

J being out of town made me miss him and my friends that live far away.  This would have been a good weekend to have my friends living here in Missouri!  I really miss them at times like these.  But I made it through, like I always do!

I got more done this weekend than I thought I would.  I am nearly done painting the babies bathroom.  Not easy to spend so much time on a ladder with a big belly painting trim at the ceiling.  It took three coats, that means three times I circled the small bathroom turning a ladder all different directions.  I don't maneuver as well as I used to and I don't move as fast.  It's frustrating to me that it's taking me this long to paint that bathroom and even more frustrating that the nursery is still a mess.  J has done a large share of the work but my share is taking me longer than usual.  I used to be able to paint a room in a day.  We are going on weeks here.   

I finally bought a baby book and started filling it out.  I watched Sex and the City 2 on PPV.  J will be thrilled when he gets the bill for that, I'm sure!  Looking forward to a sarcastic comment or two.  :)  I spent a ton of money this weekend.  Whoops!  J told me he won a couple hundred at the Casino in Atlantic City and I told him that is good because I spent a lot of dough!  On top of general shopping I went to the eye Doctor.  I found out that I have the early signs of Glaucoma.  My optic nerves which connect the brain to the eye are hollowed out and look frail.  They did some testing and my optic nerves in both eyes are below where they should be thickness wise.  This means eventually I will lose peripheral vision and some other sight.  No idea how long this will take.  It could have already started, it could take years but it will happen so slow I won't see a noticeable difference over night or anything.  I go in for more testing next weekend.  I remembered that my Aunt has always said how she is blind in one eye and has no peripheral vision.  It turns out this is hereditary.  Fun, fun.  Contacts and eyeglasses were astronomical and they tell me I have great insurance.  That's scary.  I also got a new bra and a back brace to help with my back problems.  This back brace is no joke either.  Three separate pieces that all velcro together.  I am wearing it now.  Potty breaks are a pain in the butt now.  Speaking of which.  I had 4 or 5 breaks last night-in the middle of the night.  I gave up trying to sleep in our bed.  It's sofa city for me sweetheart.  Poor Wilson didn't know what was going on or where to sleep.  Every time I got up he thought it was time to go to bed or time to go outside or time to get up and eat...nope, just another bathroom break.  Sorry Willie. 

I made lasagna yesterday along with 12 loaves of pumpkin bread, using up the rest of our pumpkin puree. 

I gave one away and have 10 in the freezer now and brought one to work  There is just something magical about warm pumpkin bread with a little spray butter on it that defines Fall for me. 

I hid from the tricker treaters last night.  I turned off all the lights and watched TV in our dark media room with the fire lit.  I wasn't in the mood to see anyone, especially our wacko neighbor who came to our door last year dressed as a scarecrow-the perfect costume.  The door bell did ring once, probably our wacko neighbor wanting to tell me my lights weren't on.  I ignored it and let Wilson bark at the person on the other side.  Who rings a door bell at a completely dark house on Halloween night?  Ugh.

Well, that about covers it.  J is home tonight at 11:15 or so.  I will be sleeping so I won't get to see him until tomorrow night really.  :(  And of course he has a hockey game tomorrow night.  Grrr.  Maybe Wednesday night will be my night?  :)