Thursday, October 29, 2009
I've thought about this post a few times since reading it last week and it occured to me a few minutes ago while thinking of my husband...I am content. Don't get me wrong, I would love to have children. But, if the future held early retirement for me and traveling the world with J, I would be okay with that.
I am in a happy place in life right now. Sure I have my sad moments/days (like my last post) but other than infertility I am fortunate. I have a great job, I am loving being an Interior Designer. I love my projects. It's little paperwork and mostly designing. I had doubts of whether or not I would like being an Interior Designer after college, but it's growing on me. I love our new house, I love having countless projects ahead of us that will create our idea of a perfect home. I love my husband and I realize now that he is out of town going on four days with two more weeks left to travel...that I will be okay as long as I have him. Since he has left town it's not a baby I am missing but J, my world. I can safely say that after 8 years I still race home after work to be with him. Look foward to my weekends to spend time with him and long to be with him when he is gone.
After I found out I would most likely have fertility problems back in January of this year Jamie had a card waiting for me on the counter at home...It had a cat on the front of the card with it's arm in a gauze sling and a gauze bandage on it's head and it read "If this situation has you thinking four-letter words...here are some you may want to add to the list-HOPE and HUGS." His message read on the inside: "A, Keep your chin up. Whatever the future holds, we will face it together, always remember that I love you. Love J" There are many things I hope to achieve in life but marrying J was my biggest achievment yet...whatever the outcome is for us, whatever life holds, I know I will be okay.