Big Girl Meds (Take 2)

Kinda like Groundhog day-I received my meds yesterday.  And like any dope fiend, I was practically frothing at the mouth to unpack them and organize them in anticipation of our next cycle.  All I can say is that we have around $2800.00 of follistim (liquid gold)  in our refrigerator crisper drawer...I don't want to brag but we've got one fertile fridge...or so we hope.  Speaking of hoping, I picked the meds up from J at work yesterday and when he brought the box to my car I said "are you delivering our baby?"  he said "I hope."  Me too.

So anyway just like last cycle I like to document the milestones in my journey.  Each milestone is so meaningful in IVF.  Getting a calendar is huge, receiving the box of meds is huge, starting lupron on Saturday will be huge...starting stims the 30th is even bigger.  I'm still not in the same mood this cycle as I was last cycle.  I'm not as naive and gushy.  I don't automatically assume there's a baby at the end of this cycle and then think "well, gee what if?"  This cycle I think "What if?" and then hope there is a baby at the end of this cycle.  It's different.  I talked to J about this a few weeks ago and I was saying how strange it is that I'm not as excited this go around and he said "It's because we know first hand that things can go wrong."  So true. 

The excitement and anticipation are building though.  With every milestone comes more excitement.  So anyway, without further ado...here are the obligatory photos.