Friday, April 30, 2010

Stim Day 1 - My hope for this cycle...

I got to work at 6:45 this morning.  The office was quiet with just a couple people buzzing around.  I sat at my desk, looked at my calendar and was excited to think today is the day we have been waiting for.  Tonight while preparing dinner for our guests, J and I will both take our antibiotics, a lowered dose of lupron and our first follistim injection...finally.  I love coming to work on Friday's because they are half days but also because I get to cross three days off my calendar-Friday, Saturday and Sunday.  Crossing three days off makes our goal that much closer.  This time I also flipped the page to a new month, our month I hope, May.  I started thinking of all the things that I hope May will hold for my J and I.  I'm not a very religious person but I did go to Church when I was younger and I do pray from time to time.  I said a quick prayer. 

I asked God to watch over us as we pursue our dream of having a child.  I promised him that I would make this child my first priority in life and would make it my mission to raise a child that felt wanted and loved.  I would give this child all of the good things I have been afforded in life and do my best spare it all of the negative things.  I would help guide this child to be a loving, responsible, caring, intelligent person.  I would give this child all that I have if we could be so lucky as to have a successful IVF cycle this time.

I also prayed for my sister-in-law and her husband who are experiencing tough times right now after a job loss.  There have been many times in my life where I have wanted to help someone so badly but haven't been sure as to how.  I feel powerless.  I told her that although we cannot help financially that I am here to listen and give advice, I just wish I could do more.

6 comments:

Julia said...

you're gonna be a great mommy, Amber. Good luck and enjoy the weekend!

Sooz said...

Good luck!! I hope everything goes well. Positive thoughts and vibes are being sent your way!

Alex said...

What a beautiful prayer. I really hope this month is it for you - you deserve it!

Rachel said...

thinking of your family!

Baby bump bound said...

Thinking of you and I am happy you are hopeful... I am hopeful for you!!

TeeJay said...

That's a great prayer and I really hope that God answers it the way you want. You seem like a very sweet and loving person and I think any child would be lucky to call you Mom.